Let’s just keep it real

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You may have heard the slang term, “Let’s just keep it 100…” I thought about using that for a headline but then I decided that maybe that was just a little too “hood.” But I do want to reveal a few things about myself today.  I got this idea from a post I did on Facebook a little while ago.  My son used to love to wear his Spiderman costume everywhere he went when he was little.  As I said on Facebook, I was uncertain whether I wanted to expose him to possible ridicule but most people just thought it was cute.  In fact, the day we were at Aquatica, a few young ladies asked if they could take a picture with him.  Back then, he didn’t mind taking pictures.  But my whole point in bringing up that story is he was unafraid to be himself back then. He still has a bit of a rebel streak now.  He prefers to wear his hair long.  I don’t really mind; it is after all his hair.  I would like to take a little credit for helping him to have the confidence to be himself.

I want him to have that feeling much earlier than I did.  It has literally taken me years to understand that I can be myself and not have to worry so much about what other people think.  I talk about this a little in my book, “Life is a Precious Gift.” Yes, shameless plug!

Now for the big reveal… I like to dress up for Halloween.  I think it’s great fun pretending to be someone else for the day and night ( I also love grown up Halloween parties where I get to have a few drinks).  I enjoy a decent cigar, occasionally.  I know this is somewhat unusual for a lady but I love football, cooking on the grill and beer too so there’s that… I love bending the hell out of traditional gender roles.  I am totally heterosexual but I hate dresses and I love business suits.

So there you have it – BE YOURSELF! Screw whoever doesn’t like it.  Enjoy life, you only get one. Be happy, be kind, be dazzling and love EVERYONE for who they are.  God did not make any mistakes when he made us.

Am I off my game?

Golf is a great stress reliever for me.

Golf is a great stress reliever for me.

I feel like I’m off my game somehow… I don’t know how to explain it? I may have briefly touched on this in a previous blog, I don’t know? But I know I mentioned it in my first book, “Life is a Precious Gift”  I  know I mentioned that for a long time, I didn’t feel like I knew my true self at all.  I mentioned feeling like I had spent so much time imitating “normal” behavior that I didn’t know what MY normal behavior looked like.

Thank God I rectified that situation and “found myself…” But you see, that’s another thing about Aspies (people with Asperger’s Syndrome ). Things can be sailing along wonderfully until the stress level increases or our routine is severely disrupted and then we are off our game.

Well, my life has definitely been disrupted in the last six months or so… But I thought I was handling it: Spiritually, physically, mentally doing the things I needed to do. But today, this morning, I wonder…? Some days are perfectly fine.  Other days I feel completely overwhelmed by life in general.  And what is my solution…? Shutting down completely,,,staying in my Woman cave watching television… not answering the phone…not writing for my job…(if I don’t write, I don’t get paid).  Shutting down is no longer a viable solution. So how do I rectify this?  Getting back into my exercise routine would help.  Maybe getting back to church on a more regular basis.  Although, more consistent prayer and meditation would be helpful as well.  Doing exactly what I’m doing…writing.  And I don’t mean for my job.  I mean for myself.

You see, I enjoy  sharing my thoughts with you all but I can’t share everything.  Some things are just for me, my composition book, tablet, laptop and God.